Jon and I are in a season where our faith and our resolve is being tested.
Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. Romans 4:20-21
When I quit my job, we knew that our finances would dwindle. We've been here before, when we first got married. We know what it's like to cut every non-essential item from our budget. We're here again, and God has provided for us. Every month since I've not received a paycheck, we have been able to pay our bills and buy groceries and gas. We were making it!
This weekend, Jon got into a very minor car accident that was legally his fault but really he could not have avoided. Everyone was fine and the other car was in good shape, but our car was smashed. On top of the $500 insurance deductible, we also have to pay his $120 ticket.
To many of my friends, this would feel like an inconvenience. Maybe they would have to scale back on not going out to dinner so often or maybe they would wait to buy the boots they've had their eye on. Unfortunately, for us, it means that's it. We finally can't make it. We are in over our heads with no financial hope in sight.
Now, we know we have hope in Jesus. In fact, He's the only thing keeping us sane. I believe in all my heart that He delights to help His inheritors, His beloved, and I truly believe that this is something that He wants to help us through. I know that it's in these seasons, these valleys, that we have to turn to Him and BELIEVE that what He says is true. We will wait on Him, we will trust Him.
On top of the car issue this weekend, my baby is sick. I don't know what's going on with her. She is definitely not herself. Her eyes are half-closed most of the time, she's had a fever on and off for the past three days, and she CANNOT find contentment anywhere but in my arms. She would've crawled back into my womb, if it was possible.
Again, I know that I just have to trust. God loves Daphne even more than I do, and He will bring her through this.